An eulogy to my wall

These walls hold a really special place in my heart.
It has seen my glitter and my grey,
my laughter and my cries,
My toddler steps to adolescence ones
And the secrets which are known to none

These walls hold a really special place in my heart,
It supported my every trembling step,
My angry punches,
I have seen it in different colours
But in every way, it managed to blossome like a flower.

These walls hold a really special place in my heart,
It has gone through many phases of life
Along with us,
It has seen our tiring nights
And some unwanted fights!

Seeing them breaking in front of me,
Tears me apart,
Because,
These walls hold a really special place in my heart

The enagmatic girl 😘

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थी तो वो आपकी ही ना

थी तो वो आपकी ही ना
जब आपने उसको अपनी ज़िन्दगी से बहार निकला था
हाँ पापा, बेटी तो आपकी ही थी ना
वो नन्ही कली, जिसको अपने खुद मारा था

तीन महीने की थी वो,
दुनिया से अनजान
ऐसी ठोकर दी आपने
की आज भी तलाशती है अपनी पहचान

सिर्फ लड़की थी, बस यही था गुनाह,
इस लिए दे दिया इतना बड़ा गम
लाख कहानियों से छुपाया है उसकी माँ ने यह राज़
जिस से उस की आँखें थी नाम

बहुत बड़े वकील हो न आप
तो इस बार कहाँ गया आपका इन्साफ
सबको इन्साफ दिया, बस अपनी को छोड़ कर
एक बार तो अपनी गलती पलट कर देखते
लड़की थी तो क्या हुआ,
आखिर, थी तो वो आपकी ही ना

The enagmatic girl 😘

A word to my second self

Dear soulmate and my better half ❤❤

I really wanted to say this to you since a long time that you guys are really precious to me. In no world, I can find someone better than you. Thankyou for staying always by my side, no matter what happened. I know I did many foolish mistakes but truly I did them because I know I have someone to hold me up everytime.

In this fake and dishonest world, I have some annoying persons with me who always stood besides me. You always supported me through ups and downs of my life. Whenever I failed or I lost someone or simply just gave up on few things, you held me together. I know we literally don’t see each other frequently, but this distance never turned us apart. We did crazy things together and you are always my shoulder to cry, the one who truly understands the real me, who is ready to fight the world for me, who knows my scars and fears but still embrace them and who loved me unconditionally and without any reason. These memories always puts an automatic smile on my face no matter how bad the situations are!

I really wanted to thank you for being my support system and my lifeline always. You are the only ones I could rely upon and trust blindly. And in the world of fake promises and fake smiles, you are the one who always bought a real one to me. You are truly a blessing to me and I can never explain how important you are to me. No one can ever replace you and separate you from me because we are one soul residing in two different bodies. And no matter how bad and unacceptable you are to the world, you are and will be always perfect for me🤗❤

I LOVE YOU💋💋

The enagmatic girl 😘

Before you replace someone…..

The worst part of any relationship is facing the reality that you are being replaced. Your efforts, love,care and all the things you did for them, are worthless now and that person is just going to replace you with another one.

But do you actually wonder that how it becomes so easy for one any so difficult for the other one? It only takes a second to put things to an end and change everything but it takes years to heal that scar.

How gracefully you declared the love as an infatuation and crushed it! If a person is ready to give you it’s 100% love, attention, care and support then how could you even think of replacing him with other one.

And before you replace someone, remember, he had given you the best of him and his time. You will never understand the pain and sufferings he faced after this. It’s all about the emotions attached and the feelings that becomes worthless for one and a lifetime pain for another. Before you replace someone, just spare a minute to think about all the time spent and the things he did for you. And maybe you can save someone from being hurt and entering into an inhuman and pathetic phase of life.

The enagmatic girl 😘

Silent conversations

Looking at you, I wonder
How you never fail to make me smile,
And feel contended
Ever though we are separated by miles!

Those old and random chats,
And the playful things we did.
Makes me smile again, magically,
Like a five years old kid.

The weird names we had,
And those late night conversations.
Missing you is an obvious thing,
Since you were the one I talked without hesitations.

Things moved on, situations changed,
But Our bond will still exist,
Because your infinite obstacles and blocks
Will fail away to separate fog and mist.

The enagmatic girl 😘

Block list

From friendlist to block list! Things ended in an unexpected way.

The most beautiful irony of an virtual relationship is that we can always be together, without being together. Every long distance relationship has a strong and a trustful base, upon which they both rely and live. That awful and pathetic feeling cannot be explained in words.

It feels as your world have shattered. From talking 24*7 to seeing his blank Dp, things went bad. I was really addicted to that one person and literally my whole day revolved around him. The little things we did for each other are enough to make my day beautiful. Though he is not physically present with me, but he always calls me till I fell asleep. We used to fight daily over petty things but I still gave my best into this relationship. He was the first one I used to call in the morning and the last one at night.

But still I wonder, that was it so uneasy for him to block me? I know I never had much importance in his life. I know he never loved me or maybe he loved someone else. I acted as his morning alarm, his secret diary, his mood changer but still he didn’t loved me. But I was still okay with it because even if you love someone,you can never force them to love you back. I accept that you don’t love me the way I do and I expect the least from you. Just ask yourself that even though you don’t consider my love, this relation, the time we had, then why do you get angry and jealous of every other person who talks with me. If I am nothing to you, then why does these things affect you? Spare a minute and ask yourself that did this block really made a difference or it was your illusion.

The enagmatic girl 😘

This home is no more the same place it used to be

This home is no more the same place,
It used to be.
It’s like a haunted and a scary building now,
Which was earlier full of smiles giggles and Glee.

Since the day you left us,
Things are no more the same.
It’s been four years now,
And I still can’t understand the blame game!!

The chair you used,
The clothes you had.
Scares me now
Instead of making me glad.

Today, I feel really jealous,
Of the daughters who have their fathers with them.
Because since you left me,
I am like a cursed root, searching for its stem.

Even today, I can feel you around me,
Waiting for you everyday.
And hoping for a miracle,
That will bring you back and allow the happiness to enter my life in a new way.

The enagmatic girl 😘